D: My birthday/Wii day is coming way too fast. I don't feel like I've been 21 long enough. ;-; I feel so old.. not to mention...
Lastnight.. I was over at my friends Michele's house. And we were watching a show called "Bridezilla" (Quite funny actually XD; ) Anyway.. I started getting all blah.. no biggie. But then I went home, and plopped down on the couch, and browsed through the mail. ANOTHER wedding invitation to ANOTHER cousin's wedding. D: ALL of my friends are married, most of my cousins are, and my sister has a boyfriend. o_'o I almost had it ALL. I was engaged and everything. Then after four years his ass cheated and got all weird. ... c-c called off the wedding and everything... Now here it is, a year later.. and I am back to zero. I had to move back home.. and start all over. I'm 21 and I have only had one boyfriend. I know it's stupid to want to get married and junk c-c but.. I want someone. I really REALLY don't want to be the crazy old cat lady living alone in the trailer park. c_c ... I don't know why I'm panicing, I'm only turning 22.. but even still... I seriously only have a dog a car and an apartment I'll be moving into in January.. alone. o_o ... I had that.. thing. c-c with that backstabbing douchebag.. but he dosen't count. Because he was a douche. And I'm not going to say "all guys are evil/the same" ..c-c.. but I don't know... *Sigh* xx;; I am freaking out about my future so bad... I wish I could just chill the hell down. x_X;;;